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Well if you know me, you'll know that the last 2 months have been the hardest of my life, you'll know i've made a lot of mistakes, and you'll know i've spent about 75% of this time above the legal alcohol limit. You'll know that I've gone back to my old ways, you'll know that I don't care what your opinion of me is, you'll know that I don't forgive people. Ever. Because once someones screwed me over, i'll never be able to look at them without remembering that fact. You'll know that I don't cry when I'm upset, I only cry when I'm pissed off. You'll know that just because you dated or are dating one of my friends, doesn't mean I have to like you. You'll know that i can't go to my local anymore. You'll know that i'd do anything to go back in time and change a lot of things. You'll know that I get pissed off if you call me a whore, (just because you two will most likely get back together, doesn't mean i'm ever going to acknowledge your existence again.) And you'll know that i don't trust people. Because every time i've done that I've been screwed over. (See cases 1.Friend is yr 12 who crashed a funeral and broke my trust. Then had to move schools. 2. Best friends ex boyfriend who called me a whore. 3. Well this one doesn't need to be named. 4. This one can't be named for reasons many will understand. Lets just say alcohol was involved. See now you know who i'm talking about don't you!)



I'm 18 and live in England.
I like to think of myself as a happy person, although i've come to the realisation recently that this doesn't always seem to be the case.
I go through phases of being bitchy and I appologise if i'm a bitch to you during this time.
It's nothing personal, you're just in my aim of fire.
My friends mean the world to me, more than I give them credit for, I honestly don't knwo what I would do without them, we've been through so much this past year and by knowing I have a support group of people dealing with some of the same things means I know i'm not alone.
I'm an american tv addict, i'm sorry I can't stop, i'll talk about programmes all teh time, you just have to deal, I watch One tree hill, Veronica mars, The OC, Alias, Charmed, 24, Instant star, Prison Break, Scrubs...all religiously...
I used to think I had good morals and high values.
I hate two-faced people, and lately i've come to the relization that many people are pathetically hypocritical.
I don't take critisism well.
I don't cry when i'm upset, only when i'm annoyed, but I get annoyed about the littlest things.
I hate it when people lie to me, even if they're trying to protect me.
The worst feeling in the world is betrayal.
The worst thing that can happen in a friend screwing you over, I've had a fair few do that, and have just learnt to build up a wall and not let people in unless I know I can trust them, which is why I don't go out of my way to patch up arguments with people unless they're a good friend, which in any case i'll probably need a few days to get over myself.
I never forgive people completely, it's just the way I am.
I hold grudges forever, so if you screw me over, you've lost all chance for me to trust you completely.
It takes me a while to get to know people, I still don't feel comfortable calling many people my friends, it's a term that gets thrown around alot, just because you've had a conversation with someone doesn't mean you're friends, just that you can hold a conversation.
I'm a typical pisces. I put alot of effort into people, but get hurt if I don't get the same respect back.
I liek seeing someone smile and knowing that I caused it.
I'm very opinionated.
And make everyone aware when I'm pissed off, I either get very quiet and bitch in my head about everything that other people are doing, or i shout at people.

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